i am broken. i am redeemed.

I wonder if God really meant for romantic love to have such a strong impact on our relationships with Him. (I like to think He did). For see, I am madly in love with Luke Jones. And the way he and I pray for one another; the way he and I touch one another; the way he and I treat and speak to one another; the way he and I look at one another; the way he and I even think about one another will directly affect our heart and the way we interact with The Lord.

For the first time in over a year I actually DEEPLY trust God. I trust that He can direct and lead where necessary (everywhere). I trust because I asked. I trust because He said He’d do it.

In 1 Peter 3:3-4 it says “Don’t be concerned about outward beauty that depends on fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should be known for the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God.”

The only other time in the New Testament it the writers use the root word for this word “precious” is in reference to Jesus’ blood.

 HOW BEAUTIFUL to be seen on that level. I desperately long to become that woman again. Even more so than before.

I am so unbelievably SICK and effing TIRED of just dipping my feet in the water. I either want to just get out and walk away or dive in and swim in the great depths of God’s love, mercy, second and 239th chances. I long for wisdom and discernment. I long to be a woman of great character and dignity and integrity. I long to love my Lord again without bounds.