i am broken. i am redeemed.

 a new song:

I’m not concerned with outward beauty
and with 7 dollars in my money jar
I’m trusting You
My Abba
My Rabbi
Cover me in Your dust
Cover me in Your dust
I’m following close behind

What do I need but You, Lord?
I know I need You
But do I love You?
Do I?

I want to know what I believe
What the hell do I believe?
I believe in You
But just who are You?

I want poverty to break my heart
and for hatred to compel me to love
I want to get off my ass and
get real about the stuff that matters
Maybe I’ll smoke a cigar and spill my heart

I don’t fit inside any box
I don’t match the mold of what
They say a Christian should be
But who really knows?

I want to be a woman who stands out
Stands out as one who loves You
One who enjoys being loved BY You

I’m a liar and a whore
and I’ve cheated on tests
I’ve cussed at my mom
and I’ve murdered with my heart
I’ve made this world and its chaos my lover
How did I wind up here?

God, I want Your overwhelming Redemption
to spill out on the canvas of my life
and maybe in the meantime
people will meet You in the midst of my depravity
in the midst of You loving me

Cover me in Your dust
’cause I’m following close behind